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Friday, August 22, 2008

Fri, 22 Aug 2008 15:14:38 GMT

(^Donna Noble is my hero FOREVER!)

'Ello mates & mate-ettes!

I don't think that's a word....anywany! How's everyone? Me has been very busy. Work, theater, writing, traveling to Canada, and then more work theater, and writing. But the trip was AMAZING! I got to visit my very bestest friend and we had a complete blast just roaming around the mountains. Yes, that's literally what we did for four days straight. It was completely awesome. I tell you, the way God speaks to you when your so emersed in His creation is just beyond comprehension. I've never felt more close to God than I did sitting on those peaks looking out over the ocean. To think that His words creating such majesties is....too much for my little human mind to understand.

But yeah, it was great sans the freaky airplane ride and frightful security business. *grin*

Anyone for a spot of rain loving?? haha We've had a bit of a draught so when we finally got some water I couldn't help but express my gratitude.

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"Tears"

Listen, listen to the tears of Heaven,
Feel their sorrow washing away.
As the pain of tomorrow,
Is stolen from today.

Hear them, hear them,
Weep for always.
Know their voices,
Grieving for delays.

See them, falling,
Notice them die,
Touch their agony,
Feel them cry.

Hold them, softly.
Speak to them close.
Reach for their souless,
Pleading to most.

Follow them, gently.
Comprehend their past.
Touch their eyeless sight,
Let them ever last.

See and listen,
To the tears of Heaven,
Know them as,
The solemn tears of God.

Weep them, ever.
Swallow their lives.
Leave them never.
Live them as they all, fall and sigh.

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Sun, 15 Jun 2008 00:22:10 GMT

Hi folks, howsit goin'? My life's so crazy lately I don't have time to sleep much less update. Me is very sorry. :) Just had a little song to share, and decided to update my xanga's look. heh heh Looks pretty good don't it? Yeah, I've joined the millions of others and become addicted to Doctor Who. haha I'm not obsessed just yet though!

Anyway...

This song is dedicated to those in our lives that we can't live without...whether or not we realize it. Someday we'll lose them and then we'll see just how much they meant to us....but by then, it will be far too late.

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"Always Will"

Does the end come at last,
When all else says it should?
Does the future beg to progress,
Are we left were once we stood?
When it's all said and done,
Do I have a reason to continue?
Or am I left here in silence,
Like false actor at a poor venue?

When I called your name,
You came running every time.
When I screamed out in pain,
You healed me with only a rhyme.
When I said no more,
You said forever.
I said I can't,
You said you would.
When the air stopped coming,
And death was sure,
You never gave up for a moment,
You were with me for a year and ever more,
On that ever distancing shore.

How can that end,
Which had no beginning?
How are we to stop,
What we didn't start?
How am I to hold on,
To something I never really had?
How can I see the light of tomorrow,
Without you there to find the sun?

Throughout the spaces and times,
Throughout the dawn and eve of me,
If you should ever once become,
No more to me than a memory,

I'll always know that,

When I call your name,
You'll come running every time.
If I scream out in pain,
You'll heal me with a word and a rhyme.
And if I say no more,
You'll say forever.
When I know I can't,
You always will.
And when the air at last stops coming,
And death is for sure,
I know you'll never give up for a moment,
You'll be with me for a lifetime and more,
On that ever distant heavenly shore.

(This song was written with my dearest friend in mind, and though I don't think she reads this, I would like to thank her sincerely.....for everything.)

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Tue, 15 Apr 2008 14:41:03 GMT

Hi guys!

I rarely update this poor old site anymore, I know. Me most sorry really! My life has been absolutely insane this past week, and for anyone who cares too, I could REALLY use some prayer right now. Been having a great deal of trouble at work and stuff. Too much drama one might say. :)

Anyway, we had a little challenge going on at ff.net where you had to write a oneshot that was 221 words long and the last word had to start with the letter 'B'. Well, I took it a bit farther and did a poem instead! lol Hope you like!

(P.S. That's me feeding the dolphin on my background pic. It was so bloody awesome!!! :)

"Bulwark"

A wisping tendril of fog,
The chill of night,
A wish,
A want,
For all at last to be made right.

A stealthy step,
A rapidly breathed breath,
A turn,
A halt,
A quick brush with death.

A typical day,
In a not so typical life,
A ray,
A light,
In this a world of strife.

Solitary perhaps at first,
Though not alone ere long,
A meeting,
An acquaintance,
A further defence against wrong.

Though weakened by hateful war,
By no means slighted in heart,
A loyal,
A stalwart,
Friend ne'er to depart.

Sometimes side by side,
More often back to back,
A blockade,
A fortress,
Against many an unseen attack.

All for an endless expanse,
A stretch of winding time,
A revolving,
A rotation,
For the many saved, eternity divine.

A partnership unfathomed,
A tie unknown by mortal eye,
Not by smile,
Not by pain,
Can this bond be brought to die.

By way of many a fearsome storm,
Through ceaseless cycling terror,
Not one shot,
Not one arrow,
Does unbalance the half-burden of either bearer.

Both gifted by One,
Yet aided by so few,
Ever remaining,
Ever sustaining,
Long after lone courage ought be torn through.

Two striving as but one,
A force of justice beyond remark,
Alone one searching,
Alone one lost,
Together, a God-fashioned bulwark.

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

Tue, 08 Jan 2008 20:58:18 GMT

Should I be shot or what?? So sorry everyone! I haven't posted anything on this poor little journal site of mine since practically the dark ages!!

How was everybody's Christmas & New Year??

Mine was quite nice. One of the things I got was that book up there. It's rotten, don't bother reading it. The first half was great, but they ruined Holmes AND Jack the Ripper in the end. Ah well, one musn't expect everything to be perfect. Anyone for a morbid sounding poem???

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"Perfectionist"

Give me the deep,
Betray the shallow.

Deliver the complex,
Throw away the simple.

Bring to me the lost and confused,
To death be the light and free.

Entomb me with that which is rigid,
Away with the gentle and mild.

Drown me amidst a sea of anxiety,
To perdition with the calm and sweet.

The road of stones is what I seek,
For the path of sand is foreign to me.

I would not have the soft, the gentle touch,
The virulent, the malicious is enough.

Gone be the effortless carefree,
These chains of perfection are life to me.

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

Tue, 08 Jan 2008 20:55:40 GMT

Should I be shot or what?? So sorry everyone! I haven't posted anything on this poor little journal of mine in since practically the dark ages!!

How was everybody's Christmas & New Year??

Mine was quite nice. One of the things I got was that book up there. It's rotten, don't bother reading it. The first half was great, but they ruined Holmes AND Jack the Ripper in the end. Ah well, one musn't want everything to be perfect. Anyone for a morbid sounding poem???

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"Perfectionist"

Give me the deep,
Betray the shallow. Deliver the complex,
Throw away the simple.
Bring to me the lost and confused,
To death be the light and free.
Entomb me with that which is rigid,
Away with the gentle and mild.
Drown me amidst a sea of anxiety,
To perdition with the calm and sweet.
The road of stones is what I seek,
For the path of sand is foreign to me.
I would not have the soft, the gentle touch,
The virulent, the malicious is enough.
Gone be the effortless carefree,
These chains of perfection are life to me.

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

Tue, 08 Jan 2008 20:55:06 GMT

Should I be shot or what?? So sorry everyone! I haven't posted anything on this poor little journal of mine in since practically the dark ages!!

How was everybody's Christmas & New Year??

Mine was quite nice. One of the things I got was that book up there. It's rotten, don't bother reading it. The first half was great, but they ruined Holmes AND Jack the Ripper in the end. Ah well, one musn't want everything to be perfect. Anyone for a morbid sounding poem???

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"Perfectionist"

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Wed, 12 Sep 2007 19:14:23 GMT

Anyone for a little SH22 poetry?? This one was from a challenge somebody did on the SH22 message boards....I simply couldn't resist taking them up on it. :)

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"A New Beginning"

Against the forces of all that be,
For the great, the good,
For the least of these,
For justice, for right,
For simple serenity,
At the forefront of time stands he.

Opposing they that dare make war,
On all that be best,
The only fortress to stand between,
They that endanger the rest.

A sword of justice from the Creator known,
To wield a power uncanny to behold.
In this new century where evil has strengthened it's throws,
Is sent to the battlefield, Sherlock Holmes.

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Alright, I know, I'm a hopeless extremist...but I tried! lol

Monday, August 06, 2007

Mon, 06 Aug 2007 19:02:01 GMT

"THE TRUTH"

There lived once a man in a house of glass,
To him came all to learn of future and past.
Wondered not they who gleaned from his mind,
Why he must needs reside in such a vitrine.
Cared they not what longings he must forego,
To hold the wisdom of the world that they might know.
High and aloft in his desolate turret there,
Rest not may he nor reach out for air.
Never ceasing were the cries for more,
No end there was to their demands for his succor.
Day by day on they pleaded and asked,
Till weighty beyond measure was his burdensome task.
On and on he confered till near none was to be found,
Until he must for a time hold back that by which he was bound.
At last to rest from his life draining vocation,
He turned aside from their wailings to embrace cessation.
Shrieked out did they at his deplorable dearth of justice,
They raved riotously of his sole centered self interest.
Till in the fervor of the moment heaved up was a stone.
The instigator of this act was forever unknown.
Yet the occurrence that ensued could nay be ever lost,
So great did they're malignant exploit cost.
First the one stone than another and another,
Alas the august bartizan of crystal did indeed fragment asunder,
Till left at the feet of the slayers lay naught but a fine powder.
Gone was he that had held together their lives,
He that with his own soul did theirs revive.
No trace of his remains was to be uncovered,
No remnent of his existence could be discovered.
Roved aimlessly did they till the past was misplaced,
Long disremembered was their incensed, irrevocable waste.
The earth was plummeted into darkness and pain,
Oh for such wisdom to rise again,
In the minds remaining of they that yet exist,
Is left but a mere nostalgia of men and security such as this.

Sunday, July 22, 2007

Sun, 22 Jul 2007 16:40:22 GMT

"Our Simple Wish"

If I had one prayer to be answered,

If there was one thing I might do,

If one dream was allowed,

If I had one wish to be granted,

This wish would I pray true,

That all might step free of the night,

And all could run into Your light,

Behind every door would reside kindness,

Hope would live in all of us,

Peace would reign from above,

Every man might know for what he longed,

No true love, ever be wronged,

The heart would never break,

No sorrow, no ache,

If I had one wish to be true,

I would wish to be with You.

Jesus we've been here for so long,

Waiting for that final day,

Longing to come home and stay,

That's all we're asking for,

To be where all are free,

Where all will step free of the night,

All will rush into Your light,

In this home will only be kindness,

Hope will be among all of us,

Every heart will have love,

Peace will no longer only be above,

Every man will fully know You,

True love will know no wrong,

The heart will never need break,

For there will be no sorrow, no ache,

And our greatest wish will be true,

Lord, when we are with You.

Sunday, July 08, 2007

Sun, 08 Jul 2007 19:37:29 GMT

I know this isn't exactly 4th of July, but I didn't have time until now. lol So, Happy Independence Day everyone!

"O Patriot!"

O Patriot! Tell me what do you see?

When outward you gaze upon your country?

View your eyes roads of mere dirt,

Withering grass, battered grey plains,

Hostile mountains, and horrid banes?

Nay! O Patriot! Then what do you see?

When your eyes scan the broad horizon of your country?

You see pathways to unventured places,

Fields of promised fruit, plains of ageless beauty,

Mountains both tall and proud, great watchers of thier fair valleys,

You see wonders beyond what mere men can tell!

A land where the Sun bends each eve just to bid us farewell,

O Patriot! This is what you see!

This is what makes you wish to die for your country!

Where men see an accident of chance as what they trod,

Patriot! You see as only it can be, as a raptureous act of God!